= The Fear and the Amoeba =
== David ==
Writing here is so frightening for many of those who ride my internal [[../The_Bus|greyhound]]. Deep in my youngest parts lives a desperate need to belong. In a literal sense, when I was very young, I could not survive without my family's care, so to lose the sense of belonging was ultimate disaster. Babies don't know how to cook, so for a baby, to be left alone means death.
As an infant, I was sometimes left in my crib to cry myself to sleep. I know this because my father has told me the story, with some pride in his voice about how my mother and he were endlessly sleep deprived waking thought the night to comfort me in my crying until one night he convinced my mother to let me cry myself to sleep. "The first night was very hard, you cried for hours, but after that one night, you slept thought the night," as my father tells it.
