cast of characters

children

soul child

  • has wonder, joy of being, simple love
  • needs nurturance and safety
  • co-opted by many protectors who claim to be shielding her

teller of tales

  • has creativity
  • co-opted by protector to build a world of safety by explaining all

middle child, teller of tales

  • has drive to explore, ability for friendship
  • needs mirroring and companionship
  • the most protected one

child of stillness

  • has ability to simply be
  • needs stillness, drifting, undefinedness

protectors

protector of isolation

  • protects the middle child
  • strategy = "don't try to connect with the people around me, connect with Bach and Issac Asimov"

protector of son-ambulance

  • protects the child of stillness
  • strategy = "when life is too overwhelming and the obsessive one will not let go, simply go to sleep"
  • strategy = "fuck you I won't do it"
  • when he steps down, I am able to judiciously take the stillness the child of stillness needs and the middle child is freed to tell amusing tales

protector of understanding - the obsessive one part 1

  • protects the middle child
  • strategy = "understand people around me, so I can hold back my love when I might not get the mirroring I need"
  • when he steps down, the middle child and the soul child are allowed to freely feel my love for the people around me

protector of pleasing others

  • protects the middle child
  • this is my dominant shadow personality
  • strategy = "perform flawlessly according to the standards of the people around me and I will get a substitute for the mirroring which the middle child needs"