Jai Shri Radhe

Just before covid lockdown Prema and Gaur came over and we recorded some of the tracks for this piece.

In the next week we exchanged more tracks and I mixed them for this.

I love Prema and Gaur so very deeply. My musical experience with them reaches my heart like no other. For me, big love comes with fear. Because my heart has broken in the past, I hesitate in reaching out for love, fearing that I will reach and find there is nothing there. The day I called Prema and Gaur asking them to come by for this session, I recall the effort I made to reassure this protector from my broken heart.

Listening to our music today, I can hear my longing which I hold as so precious. As much trouble as the protector from the broken heart causes in my life, the longing for love which lies beneath him is in truth the key to connecting with others. My broken heart cries tears of relief as Prema sings "Jai Shri Radhe". Surely, my heart will break again in my life, but not the day Prema and Gaur showed up in my living room.

The deeper truth is that even on that day when my heart does break, the love of Radhe will always be with me, and as I sit with the pain of a broken heart, I can survive and move thru grief because of Radhe's love.

Writing now it's Nov 2021 and looking at the dates on these files I realize it is going on 2 years since I sat in the same room playing music with Prema and Gaur and I feel such sadness and longing and looking forward to the time when I can resume moving forward on creating the life of musical collaboration I long for. May that time be now!